Monthly Archives: February 2012

Tough times…

“Good times come, once when the bad times pass…..” is an adage that I often got to hear for the past three days. Honestly, the only thing that I want to ask is that, will the bad times ever end? And, will the good times ever come?

Right now, what I know for sure is that, I’m tired.

Tired of the mess that I am embroiled in.

Tired of all the endless speculations and uncertainties.

Tired of walking in the dark.

Just tired…..

Though, deep down I know this mess would eventually clear up. For better or worse, whatever may be the consequences, I know I have to face this.

But I now, I wonder if happy moments do exist? If there are any things in this world, that is certain? Will I know that tomorrow I would still hold the job that I have today? Will I know the day before, that tomorrow I may be transferred to a new place? Will I ever know if I would get to see the people I love and care for tomorrow?

I guess, nobody has the real answers to these questions. Though, then I must ask what is the point of life? Is there any certainty to tomorrow….forget about the future? Would I ever feel happiness again? Would I find the light at the end?

I don’t know….says my inner mind. But what I know for sure, is that….

“You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.

 To believe that you can reach a state of happiness and stay there forever, is like the tide believing she can reach for the shoreline and remain there forever; or like a fruit tree believing that if she only holds on tighter, she can keep her fruit from dropping to the ground.

 Happiness is simply a series of moments that come and go and add sweetness to our lives.

 Learn to accept this, and the more happy moments you will have…..”

So here I am now, tired but still trying to figure out what is happening and what will happen next. And in the process, I’m trying to accept the course of events as they come. And hoping that, His Grace would be sufficient and that there would soon be light at the end of the dark tunnel.



Reality: simplicity vs. complexity !!

Recently, there used to be this ad by an Indian telecommunication company, which goes by the name of Docomo…here is a sample, (though I guess figuring out the language won’t be so easy !!)

The underlining factor is keep things simple. Like no one wants an elaborate wedding card minus the invite !!!

And fact is, when do you become a man, my son ?! ….

.…only when life get’s less complicated and more to the point !!

In reality, most of the time we prefer other’s to read between the lines and our expressions and then figure our minds out. This may work some of the time, though most often it doesn’t.

Face the facts; everyone is busy and each person has their own individual bundle of problems. So figuring out others’ may not always work out..and that’s when it’s time to, keep it simple !!

If you are missing someone…give them a call or tweet or message. Don’t wait for them to do it and then latter worry about the lack of keeping in touch. Just do it !!!

If you want to meet someone….just invite them instead of hanging in the alleys and in their shadows or the classical “oops I’m sorry I bumped into you” act, to get noticed.

If you want to be understood, just explain. If the other side is willing to hear you out or not. Else even an email works fine. Don’t carry the weight in your mind.

If you have questions, ask them; instead of giving in way to confusion and a series of “what if’s” and surprised looks !!

If you like it..or even if you don’t; say it if you are supposed to !! No point in keeping someone in the dark.

And if you want have to ask for it !!

For only the seekers shall find it, those who ask shall get answers and those who knock, will know whether the door will open or not !!

Besides, many don’t know what’s on your mind. Expressing them is better than expecting others to always figure you out. Think of it, when you take so much of time to think of the “no’s” and you already figure that you have them; why not simply take the risk to get a “yes” too !!

All of us just have one life, so why not just keep it simple ?

The day after tomorrow….

Ah yes, not today, but the day after tomorrow…interestingly, the most awaited day after the New Year ( minus the b’day celebrations and anniversaries in between). At last, it will be the V-Day soon!! Unfortunately, I shall be in the rural area and forget about posting from there. The reception is quite bad, for most of my incoming and outgoing calls go as “out of range” and as for internet services, don’t mention it….why do I always wish for flying horses !!

And so in the leap month of February, it’s going to be “the Valentine’s day”….yes, especially meant for the couples, but also for all loved ones. I remember in mid-school, we had to make cards and candy for all the girls and guys in the gang. Fast forward to college and post-university, cards for some or most, and candy for few !!

And how do we define love ? Yes, there is the original text from the Bible , which goes as,

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.”

And putting it in the more simple terms, in our day-to-day language, love is like this…

Though, this time I want to share something about love, which goes beyond mutual love.

In reality to love someone, means to give  a part of your day or existence to share it with another person. And many a time, things may not work out and each time, we get more bitter and betrayed. And that’s when we lose our hope in love and life.

To love truly, means to get a “perfect heart”, which never happens in reality. And what is the story behind the perfect heart ?

The Perfect Heart (Author: Unknown)

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said “Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine.” The crowd and the young man looked at the old man’s heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn’t fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared – how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man’s heart and saw its state and laughed. “You must be joking,” he said. “Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears.”

“Yes,” said the old man, “Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love – I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren’t exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn’t returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges – – giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?”

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man’s heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man’s heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side. How sad it must be to go through life with a whole untouched heart.

Another thing that I can say about love, is that it is persistent and many a time, silent. A Silent Love. It’s up to us to recognize the silence and then accept it to be a part of our life and destiny. Sometimes, the more silent the love is, the stronger it will be.

And last of all, love doesn’t need a reason. What “If Love needs a reason..”  No, it doesn’t need one. If it ever does need a reason, what happens when the reason to love is gone ?!! Then it won’t be love anymore …And that’s the truth of real love, many a time, you don’t have a reason to love someone, you just do…and that’s true love.

And that’s always true, for real love never fails. It always finds you and becomes a part of your life.

Happy Valentine’s Day !!


Mulling over the circumstances.

Pitter – patter !! With the slosh of mud and wide array of puddles grazing the front lawn, I guess that’s the start of the spring rains. It’s been raining like crazy since last night. A sure sign of the fresh grass and the end of the icy, cold and foggy mornings ( unfortunately, it doesn’t snow here and I miss that white blanket !!)

So here I am, just sitting around and pondering. For starters, it’s been a while since I sat down to do nothing; and I’m really liking this.

And in addition, getting the chance to enjoy the rain and freshen up inside, makes the weekend worth it; even if it means no outside parties or late town-nights.

And so over a cup of hot chocolate, here are the outcomes of the neuronal network in my grey matter at work…

One of the major characteristics of human attitude, is how we try to explain ourselves; whether it be for our rights or our wrongs. Surprisingly, even if we know that we are on the wrong side; it’s rather difficult for us to accept that we are on the wrong track and to change lanes.This is something that I have seen both, on the personal front-lines and even at work.

It’s so easy to say, that it’s not my fault, blame it on my up-bringing…

Or to say, it isn’t my fault that I wasn’t given a chance. My circumstances made me this way…

Isn’t it so easy to blame someone or many a time, a situation for making u do something that we would later regret ?!! Is it so hard to accept and realize what had gone wrong was in our hands and not in someone else’s ? Is it so difficult to turn around our circumstances to our favor ?

But one thing that I do believe, it all starts within. It all depends on us, our dreams and attitude. In the end, that’s what defines us and our life.

Isn’t it true, that ultimately, it’s up to you to determine the course. Circumstances are there. They may change you or bring about a string of life-events which have an impact. But they never define you, it’s how you handle them that defines you.

So it’s finally time to determine the course, with or without the favor of circumstances.

The days of lemons and lemonades are over, it’s time for lemon pies !!!

Good ol’ Kodak snaps – now ancient ?!!

As I was sitting in the early noon sun, pouring over the photos in my collection of family and pre-univ days; a sense of nostalgia came over.

The feel of the plastic of different size and shapes, running over the outline of people, the first days, the baby steps, the family get-together and many more; seeing the on-the-spot photography in hard print – brings back fond memories and yes, they all remind me of the good ol’ pre-digital days.

It’s not that I am at war with the digital era, it’s kind of a necessity these days (but not a compulsion !!). Photos get shared globally, better clarity and not to forget, the huge amount of editing and re-editing that can be done. Yet something that I feel is real lacking is that, no one can feel the digital pictures. I mean, I look at the jpg image, and then yes I remember the day, the time and what had happened. But no laptop and no cell phone, I won’t get to the pictures. Instead give me a hard copy, and then I can treasure, put it up on my wall, carry it where ever I go. I don’t necessarily need my laptop or cell phone with me then. Just imagine what happens when they run out of charge, virus-ed, hacked or even worse, lost. All contacts and photos…wiped out, lost !! Yikes !!

Maybe the best way is to get an assortment of my favorite digital snaps on hard copy, and that way I can have my memories by the fire in the woods.

Speaking of which, Kodak moments do live on. Even though camera films have become vintage, I guess  I’ll still use them occasionally, just for fun.

Listening beyond the words.

Human nature, I think has a lot of stubbornness laced within. Maybe it is that adamant and stubborn of ours, that so very often we try to hide every thing, with or without us realizing it. Let me expand on something that my best friend had once shared with me.

There’s always a little truth behind every “Just Kidding” …. ( It’s true that, humor is always nice to hear..but is there an ounce of truth in what was said ? )

A little knowledge behind every “I don’t Know”…. ( For I think if I say I know, it could shatter someone else’s piece of mind…)

A little emotion behind every “I don’t care”…. ( Because I don’t want to let you know, that I care. For that makes me vulnerable…)

A little uneasiness behind every “I’m OK”….. ( The last thing I want to is to burden you with my problems. I’m an adult. I’ll handle it. At least, I’ll try to; though it hurts…)

A little pain behind every “Forget it”…. ( Forgetting is the best thing for if the crevice deepens any further, it won’t heal ever.)

A little fear behind every “Leave me alone”… ( I need to say it so, because I know I can’t have you in my life every single day and single moment. I need to face it alone. Or at least I need to try to…)

A little hope behind every “Goodbye”… ( And even when I say that, I am hoping that you would call me from behind and stay. Or even that someday, we would meet again.)

Isn’t it so true when they say that, “there’s always a ‘something’ behind every “Nothing”… 

If only we’d understand the speech behind every silence, then maybe someday we’d understand all those around us …!! And that’s when we realize the true value of friends and family; and the true value of life and love….