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For you…from yours truly

One hour later, it would be one month down. Somehow, it feels like a long time ago, that I was caught up in the frenzy of the New Year celebrations.

Truth to tell, I feel kind of more “off the track” of late. I do feel happy and content in my surroundings but also (sigh!) a little bit restless.

Wonder why.

Flipping through the channels, (yes, I am finally sitting in front of the big screen!!) one thought that keeps on nagging my conscience is; its 2013 and you’re growing in no way younger; so what have you done so far? What have you promised to yourself?

Promise?!  To myself?! You’ve got to be kidding!!

Why? You have to give an assurance to yourself over something? Or are you not important to promise yourself something?!

No it’s not that; it’s just that there’s nothing much to promise myself. I have already made a list of resolutions.

No, I’m talking about “promise”. To give yourself what you really want. To take an undertaking or vow only for yourself.

I already have more blessings than I can count. So what do I want more?

Are your blessings making you too set in life? What about making those blessings into talents ? What about your dreams? Your dream to make a difference…

….. That’s what I am doing here….

Is that enough? Not the realistic dreams, but your dream to “live life” or are you falling into the good old comfortable routine?

We need routines and yes, I always tend to fall into one.

Then why are you restless? Or is it “dissatisfaction cloaked”? Or are you hiding from taking a chance? What happened to your “bucket list”?!!

My bucket list; there was one maybe five years ago; but no more.

Why not?

I don’t know !!

Then this what I have to say;

“We don’t have all the time in the world.

You need to live life for yourself; not selfishly but true to your inner voice and to your inner self.

A promise to; free yourself of the constraints of the day, and to just explore life.

To do what you want to do, to take chances and to make changes. 

Walk that extra mile, make a new path and if you feel like running, hike up your skirts and just run.

Yes, we do live in a society but do re-script the rules once a while; only for you to live life.

Some bridges may need to be burnt. In that case, burn them and find another way to crossover. But whatever it may be, take care not to lose your passion for life.

Just run with the wind once a while and breathe in what is there around you. 

All I am asking you, is to promise yourself to make your bucket list …

And in doing so…dream big, take small steps, jump a little, walk a new path, sail through un-chartered waters, run awhile, find life and most of all in doing so; find peace in your inner self ….

…Yours truly..

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It’s not only about the bit where the glass is half full…

 

Half full or half empty ?!! That’s the story of how positive thinking goes. The way you view a glass of level with the water at the mid-level (..i.e. the realistic view !!)

But today, I was wondering what happens when the glass suddenly just slips and breaks ….. Lucky or unlucky ?!! Bad omen ? I guess, that what happens most of the time, when we set out to do something and it feels that everything in the world, or rather everything that is happening around us, is going against us.

Well, at this point all I can say is, “Welcome to my world!! ”

Yes, things at this point looked like that, till I just sat and gave my thoughts their say. And eventually, this is what I believe….

“When you take a moment to acknowledge how far you’ve come and then look around you, and within yourself…you’ll  remember that you started with nothing, and know that everything that you have achieved so far, is what you have done with His Grace.

Yes, you can lose all feelings of self-worth, especially when something goes wrong in our world, which we deem is the most crucial to us.Yet, the truth is that if you have done it before, you can do it again, no matter what. 

As long as you feel the drive and the willingness to try again, you’re still alive. As long as you make mistakes, you’re still human. And as long as you keep trying, there’s still hope.

So, all I can say for now, is to never give up on yourself and never abandon your dreams.”

 

As for as signs go, yes I did get my coat splattered with mud, thanks to the heavy rains !!, en route for the grand presentation; but my presentation went better than what I hoped for.

And yes, I’m still in a race against time, but I guess I’ll manage shuffling between deadlines and relationships. Believe, the latter is what gets strained fast.

And even though, my plans aren’t going smooth, I guess, I’ll still manage.

After all, every mountain has an “up” and “down”. If there were only up’s, even the skies won’t be able to accommodate us. But a black hole might !!

I guess, the most important thing is not to be bitter over the disappointments. It’s too much to expect that everyday would be sunny. And it is when we get lost, in the darkness and despair; it’s only in the black of the night, that you can make out the stars, and then eventually they would be a light to lead us on.

So even when things go against us and the plans…. it’s worth to make mistakes, to stumble, to fall, because most of the time, the greatest rewards come when we do the things that scares us the most…the biggest risks, the big gamble. And someday. we’ll get everything more than we could ever have imagined.

For, who knows where life will take us? The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination but when we stand still and waste our time in moroseness and all the “why me ?!!”; we would be getting nowhere.

So, run and get moving.

Have a happy week ahead !!

 


Finding it…

“It’s a state of mind of mind”, they say…

But what they don’t know is that,

It’s also a choice.

It’s something you get only when you are yourself.

It disappears when we change ourselves to be something else, what we are truly not, just to please others.

To find it, you have to learn not to take everything to heart. Perchance, if others don’t like your actions or words, even if you don’t mean to hurt anyone, then let them be. You can’t change everyone, but you can change yourself…

If life was about pleasing everybody, then you would never find it…

It runs away, when you are deeply troubled and irritated.

But, it’ll come again…if..and only if…

You muster your courage to admit when you’re scared….

learn to laugh even though you are crying deep inside…

the guts to speak up, even if your voice feels shaky…

and  when you need help, the confidence to ask for guidance…

and the will to listen to words of advice and wisdom….

Then you would definitely find it…and

That “It” is nothing but happiness…

The happiness of mind, heart and soul…to have all three of them is indeed an art and the gift of life…


What the sunset says…

“Come watch with me the shaft of fire that glows
In yonder West: the fair, frail palaces,
The fading Alps and archipelagoes,
And great cloud-continents of sunset-seas…..
..  
Thomas Bailey Aldrich ; Sonnet Miracles”

And that’s the beauty of sunsets. I don’t if it’s common these days, but my grandma often used to say, Every time you wake up and ask yourself, What good things am I going to do today?, remember that when the sun goes down at sunset, it will take a part of your life with it.” 

True, for me sunsets define an end to the day and brings all the happenings to a close. It’s like the perfect time to reminiscence about the good things of the day, indulge in a little bit of nostalgia and loads of wishful thinking and slowly get geared for the next day.

Yet if there is one phrase that always echoes in my mind, it’s the words “Never let the sun go down in your anger.” If there is something left unfinished or unsaid, something that keeps on nagging your mind or anything that’s needs to be said and done with, before sunset is the rule. Afterall, isn’t it worth to have one peaceful night ?!! Sunsets do have a healing touch, we only need to find the time and see it.

Deviating from the philosophical bent, I have been fascinated by sunsets ever since childhood. Maybe it’s the play of colours or simply the sun saying goodbye; yet it has always had a profound effect on me. After witnessing a whole sunset, from the ebbing of the bright rays to the hue of colours and then the dusky darkness; Nature has found a way to keep man in awe of her. And brings time to a standstill. Speaking of sunsets, today mine reminded me of Emily Dickinson’s “The Coming of Night”, though not of the countryside, but of the fiery city skies.

So what are you – a sunrise or sunset person ? Or a bit of both ?! Or none !!

 


Finding Courage…

“There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go”.

This is something that I have learnt over the past one week….

 The lesson, which is the fact that; where ever we go in our lives, no matter where we are, no matter how big or small, or how distinguished we may be; one thing is true, is that we have to live courageously.

 To be willing to accept the things that have happened in our lives that we never wanted to happen….

 To learn the things in our lives we never cared to learn about…..

 And if it comes to the point where we have to let the people go in our lives that are only bringing us down, even though it “feels” different being with them…then we have to take that step..to let them go and find ourselves back…

 

One thing that I have to do is to grow….

 And that happens only when I am able to let go of the person that I was, then and only then will I ever truly be able to start becoming the person that, I dream and that I know I can be.

 It takes real courage to stand up and fight for what you believe, for what is in your heart, instead of letting life dictate to you that you will be what it wants you to be. 

For always, there will always be many things in our lives that we will have trouble letting go, but “letting go” doesn’t equate with the fact that our lives are over….

 “Letting go”, I guess means that we taken a new path and in the process acquire the true spirit of life, and the silent acknowledgement that we are more ready than ever, to face and to conquer whatever lies in our path, as we travel through the roads of life. 

The lesson of courage and to brave it out; no matter how hard it may be. To stand up and face the shadows and doubts; to find a way out through the darkness and eventually getting geared up to chart a new course, if that is the only and the best option left. And ultimately, to find ourselves back again.

I still haven’t yet figured out a way to sort out the crisis from the last month. Still on the mode of contemplation and introspection, I just pray that in the end, it would all be fine. Right now, I really have to face the unpleasantness of my situation. I have to start to believe in the word which begins with the letter “C”…C for Courage…


Tough times…

“Good times come, once when the bad times pass…..” is an adage that I often got to hear for the past three days. Honestly, the only thing that I want to ask is that, will the bad times ever end? And, will the good times ever come?

Right now, what I know for sure is that, I’m tired.

Tired of the mess that I am embroiled in.

Tired of all the endless speculations and uncertainties.

Tired of walking in the dark.

Just tired…..

Though, deep down I know this mess would eventually clear up. For better or worse, whatever may be the consequences, I know I have to face this.

But I now, I wonder if happy moments do exist? If there are any things in this world, that is certain? Will I know that tomorrow I would still hold the job that I have today? Will I know the day before, that tomorrow I may be transferred to a new place? Will I ever know if I would get to see the people I love and care for tomorrow?

I guess, nobody has the real answers to these questions. Though, then I must ask what is the point of life? Is there any certainty to tomorrow….forget about the future? Would I ever feel happiness again? Would I find the light at the end?

I don’t know….says my inner mind. But what I know for sure, is that….

“You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.

 To believe that you can reach a state of happiness and stay there forever, is like the tide believing she can reach for the shoreline and remain there forever; or like a fruit tree believing that if she only holds on tighter, she can keep her fruit from dropping to the ground.

 Happiness is simply a series of moments that come and go and add sweetness to our lives.

 Learn to accept this, and the more happy moments you will have…..”

So here I am now, tired but still trying to figure out what is happening and what will happen next. And in the process, I’m trying to accept the course of events as they come. And hoping that, His Grace would be sufficient and that there would soon be light at the end of the dark tunnel.

 


The day after tomorrow….

Ah yes, not today, but the day after tomorrow…interestingly, the most awaited day after the New Year ( minus the b’day celebrations and anniversaries in between). At last, it will be the V-Day soon!! Unfortunately, I shall be in the rural area and forget about posting from there. The reception is quite bad, for most of my incoming and outgoing calls go as “out of range” and as for internet services, don’t mention it….why do I always wish for flying horses !!

And so in the leap month of February, it’s going to be “the Valentine’s day”….yes, especially meant for the couples, but also for all loved ones. I remember in mid-school, we had to make cards and candy for all the girls and guys in the gang. Fast forward to college and post-university, cards for some or most, and candy for few !!

And how do we define love ? Yes, there is the original text from the Bible , which goes as,

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.”

And putting it in the more simple terms, in our day-to-day language, love is like this…

Though, this time I want to share something about love, which goes beyond mutual love.

In reality to love someone, means to give  a part of your day or existence to share it with another person. And many a time, things may not work out and each time, we get more bitter and betrayed. And that’s when we lose our hope in love and life.

To love truly, means to get a “perfect heart”, which never happens in reality. And what is the story behind the perfect heart ?

The Perfect Heart (Author: Unknown)

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said “Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine.” The crowd and the young man looked at the old man’s heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn’t fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared – how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man’s heart and saw its state and laughed. “You must be joking,” he said. “Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears.”

“Yes,” said the old man, “Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love – I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren’t exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn’t returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges – – giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?”

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man’s heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man’s heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side. How sad it must be to go through life with a whole untouched heart.

Another thing that I can say about love, is that it is persistent and many a time, silent. A Silent Love. It’s up to us to recognize the silence and then accept it to be a part of our life and destiny. Sometimes, the more silent the love is, the stronger it will be.

And last of all, love doesn’t need a reason. What “If Love needs a reason..”  No, it doesn’t need one. If it ever does need a reason, what happens when the reason to love is gone ?!! Then it won’t be love anymore …And that’s the truth of real love, many a time, you don’t have a reason to love someone, you just do…and that’s true love.

And that’s always true, for real love never fails. It always finds you and becomes a part of your life.

Happy Valentine’s Day !!